Forty, Twenty, Ten, One by Jacquelyn
Milestones or stumbling blocks?
This is a year for important numbers. In December, I’ll turn 40. I know, hard to believe, right? In April, I’ll celebrate 20 years with my husband Michael. In September, we’ll have been in Canada for 10 years and next month is the first birthday of Radiant Joy Yoga.
My birthday is still quite a way off so I’m not feeling concerned, at least not yet. For now, I feel liberated. What excuse can I use to hold myself back now? What else is there to wait for? Whose permission do I need now? I feel free to reach and try and love in a way that my self-conscious 20’s and early 30’s didn’t allow.
I’m also happy to celebrate 20 years with Michael, they’ve been good years even when they weren’t easy. I am grateful to have found him, for what he’s taught me and for the support he continues to give. Our 10 years in Canada have been amazing. We’re so glad that we took the chance to come here and be changed by the experience. We miss people of course but it was a good decision, if not an easy one.
I’m most surprised about the one year anniversary of the studio. On the one hand it feels like we’ve been doing this forever and on the other hand, where did that year go? When I look back at emails from this time last year I see panic, unbelievable busy-ness and strong support from family and friends.
One year ago we began to renovate the space, to turn it into what we now see as our yoga home. The next ten days were exhausting and uplifting all at once. We worked 20 hour days, we learned to do things we had never done before and we tackled issues that seemed beyond us. By 1st April, the irony of the date is not lost on me, we were ‘ready’ to open.
At about 2 am that morning, Lauren and I ran around the studio with ‘capes’ made from half sewn curtains. (We were very sleep deprived, lol.) We had breakfast from Tim’s in the car on the way home about 3.30 am and managed to get a teeny little sleep before heading back to the studio, shaking, to teach the inaugural class and throw the doors open to well wishers. We were relieved and honoured to find that there were many.
I don’t know if you know, but all of this was way beyond me. It wasn’t the kind of thing I’d ever do. I was much too shy and quiet. Too passive, too weak and too afraid for any of this. But, somehow I did. Somehow with the help of my husband, kids, friends, parents, brother, professionals and students the studio was renovated, curtained and opened. If that’s not a miracle, I don’t know what is.
Thank you all for what you’ve done. For your support, your campaigning, your attendance, your teaching, your love, your passion and compassion. This experience and your involvement have changed me and helped me grow. We will celebrate all of this on Sunday 14th April, 1-4 pm. More details to follow. Please come along.
I’m grateful for all of it. The 20 hour days, the panics, the fear, the joy, the yoga, the challenges and the happiness of seeing other people enjoying the practice and the space.
Looking ahead we have many more challenges to face. We have a three major names in the Bhakti yoga-sphere coming to share their music. More fresh ground broken. Brenda McMorrow and John de Kadt in May and David Newman (Durga Das) in July.
We will soon begin our partnership with Rogers TV and begin to film yoga TV shows. Talk about terrifying! We also have a few other announcements to come.
When I look back and see what we’ve already done, with your help, I know that we can face all these challenges too. The coming milestones aren’t stumbling blocks but steps to climb higher. One step at a time we’ll get there even when we think we won’t.
I know that I am fortunate beyond all measure to be doing what I love with people whom I love. Thank you for that privilege.
Hope to see you on your mat this week. What dreams will you dare to dream and manifest this year?
PS Gentle Yoga this Sunday will be taught by the lovely Bette Hodgins as I’ll be at the Yoga Conference learning from the brightest minds in yoga anatomy theory. If you’ve not experienced Bette’s teachings yet, you’re in for a treat. Enjoy!
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